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Love,
I wish I could stop this.
I want to do everything, anything I can,
to stop this.

Love,
I hate that this happened to you.

Love,
he makes me want to be violent.
Claw his eyes out, crack his skull on the pavement, stuff his ears with gunpowder and light him up, launch projectiles at his head-
I will hold anger toward him, always, for what he did.
To you, and so many others.

Love,
he is not your friend.
He does not see you for you, he never did.
He sees you,
young forgiving you,
as nothing more than a means to his end.

Love, I need this to be so abundantly clear-

This is not your fault.
Will never be,
could never be,
cannot be, your fault.

Never blame yourself for this.

You’re going to have endless questions-
How did I not see it?
Was I that unaware?
How did it take me so long to realize?
Was it obvious to everyone else?
Why didn’t anyone stop it?
What else have I still not realized?

This is not your failure to hold.
You aren’t a fool, and you aren’t some idiot.
It’s hard to recognize when you’ve never seen it,
or when it’s happening to you.

Love,
I wish I could have stopped this.
It breaks my heart that I can’t.
He is disgusting, awful, deplorable, for doing this to you.
All fault lies with him.

Love,
hold these words close and remember them,
they are all I can give you.

Find the courage to forgive yourself for this.
It was never your fault.

With so much love,
Elina